This Date Only

The unrelenting question I'm expressing within
I identify my person while releasing my sin
Rusted in remorse, tattered and bruised
Slowly I get back up, beautified and abused
Exposed I become in piercing the pain
I emerge from the prison preoccupied with you
I find pleasure and grace lifting up my head
I can surely see your face grazing into place
Go away...yet please stay... I'm battered and abused
I've closed my heart for a reason, thus I must pray
Why do you always turn away and leave me here without an image
And thus I must pray... again... I can't take much more
I want to run away... I want to fly
But I must wait on you...
So sick of sitting here... So sick of all the abuse
Guilt overwhelms my heart, laid down by your desire
I am broken inside, left by your pride
Where are you?
Heart like a plastered grid of paper
Covered, mattered, and used
Marred and disfigured by the blood and scars
Am I just a number or another face to you
Erase, smudge, and dodge the circle
Yet...still what am I to do?
Narrowing the time and pain
Each day becomes a memory of relentless gain
Someday the promise will come true
My heart will gravitate just right
And soon I will be next to you

Mixed media oil painting
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Thoughts of the color red
Pains of over birthing
Time pounding in my head
Still reminiscing
Realizing what was said
No compromising
Still I see the red
Pounding against my chest
Rhetorical sustenance
Abandoning the wont
Unbridled Words
Unbroken Words
Remedial discussions
As if now
I break the flowing
Of over knowing
Soliciting a solace
Rasping the thoughts
Overcoming the encumbrance
Ending this moment

 

This poem and art journal page is about overcoming hindrances and negative thinking patterns. Sometimes a pattern of thinking can hinder us from moving ahead or accomplishing something; perhaps a chore, goal, or dream. It is good that we always try to be aware of these hindrances in our minds. Even if we are not strong enough to overcome them; if we are aware of them, we can work toward overcoming them. Sometimes this process can be unpleasant to experience, especially if it is painful. We can choose to counter these negative thought patterns by replacing them with positive thoughts. Just think about something else. Think about something good and positive, something that is uplifting and encouraging to yourself. And once a habit of this is achieved, one has gained control over their thoughts and the process of their thoughts. This gives you freedom from the negative and helps you achieve your goals, dreams, and whatever else you may decide you want to accomplish in life.

Art Journal Page
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Growing Into Love

Amplifying Passion
Into recognition of the disguise
Of Love
Bursting Out
Into the premonition of fear
Guarding the heart
Spreading Forth
Around the stimulation
Of directional substance
Proportional Knowing
Expanding the thought
Til intensified dreams
Cultivating Prediction
There all along
Hidden in the depths
Enduringly Hoping
Coming out of hiding
Exposing my heart

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Free Collage Sheet

Here is a free downloadable collage sheet for you all. You may download this sheet by going here to my flickr pages and clicking on the All Sizes button directly above the image. You may also view my free downloadable ATC backs here as well.
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I pray you all have a wonderful and blessed holiday season filled with love, joy, and peace.

Waiting For Him

Though turmoil encompasses me about
All the tyrannical times of pain
I've been undulate round about
Please relieve my suffering
Please take this cup from me
Nevertheless, not my will
But Thy will be done

Why have these storms come upon me
The distress and anguish of soul
Yet I will gladly suffer
In hopes that Your people be made whole
Why?... I love them

Every heart transcends beauty
From the least, small, greatest
Each one is like a rose
I can fully see their potential
Love...is in mine eyes...

I shall but serve Thee
My King, my Lord, my God
Though the cup has been bitter
I still love Thee with everlasting love
I'm still all Yours
If You choose to have me...

Waiting for You still...
Come quickly Love... Quickly
Lest my heart faint without Thee
It is everything to me whether Thou shalt tarry
Come now Love

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Sojourning in this place
Solemnizing Your Spirit
I see beauty and grace
Hidden behind a smile
Yet I've not seen Your face
But I see Your heart
So soft I savore
I taste
Let me breathe You in
Consume You
Capture You
Overcome by desire to have
My intentions...are they good?
Surely not
Immersing into You
An illusory clue
Of glowing fire
My heart plays a harp
Of love songs to You
Instrumental words with soft hues
Passion increasing
Excelling destiny
Captured...Yes arrested
By You
I'm once again All Yours

Art Journal Page
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Love is Freedom

Love is Freedom
Freedom to Live
Freedom to Be
Freedom to Fly

To be captivated by love is to be free...totally free!
Swept away into a garden of bliss and delight.
Passion ignited by love is an explosion of true and pure worship. You become drove into utter bliss and captured in passion that is fueled by love. Your desire for this love becomes desperate. You live, breathe... You truly love.
The object of your love becomes a spark of desire at every turn and glance. Captivated and invigorated...! You become enthralled into submission of warmth and affection that necessitates your entire being. You become luminous with radiating light from within.

Oh, let Thine light radiate from within.
I'm in love... drunk in love!

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe