Thursday, December 31, 2009

This Date Only

This Date Only

The unrelenting question I'm expressing within
I identify my person while releasing my sin
Rusted in remorse, tattered and bruised
Slowly I get back up, beautified and abused
Exposed I become in piercing the pain
I emerge from the prison preoccupied with you
I find pleasure and grace lifting up my head
I can surely see your face grazing into place
Go away...yet please stay... I'm battered and abused
I've closed my heart for a reason, thus I must pray
Why do you always turn away and leave me here without an image
And thus I must pray... again... I can't take much more
I want to run away... I want to fly
But I must wait on you...
So sick of sitting here... So sick of all the abuse
Guilt overwhelms my heart, laid down by your desire
I am broken inside, left by your pride
Where are you?
Heart like a plastered grid of paper
Covered, mattered, and used
Marred and disfigured by the blood and scars
Am I just a number or another face to you
Erase, smudge, and dodge the circle
Yet...still what am I to do?
Narrowing the time and pain
Each day becomes a memory of relentless gain
Someday the promise will come true
My heart will gravitate just right
And soon I will be next to you
Mixed media oil painting
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe


peggy gatto said...

Wishing you every blessing!!

JoMo said...

Your writing is so beautiful. And your art is equally inspiring. Thanks for sharing it!

Ganga Fondan said...

This writing is so raw and beautiful like a heart breaking, but breaking open. Your writing bursts the shell. Wonderful. thanks for your visit too. Have an awe-inspired and "dreams come true" kind of year!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi Tonya, Thank you for visiting my blog!
I so enjoyed your write.. and of course your painting.

It is of course a great thing we can count on God our Redeemer, to help us sort, sift, dump, and "create a new"...
Prayers and hugs, Darlene xo
Jesus Loves you and so do I!

~*~Patty Szymkowicz said...

You express yourself so beautifully in words AND in artwork!
Brightest of Blessings All Ways!!!