Poetry - "Holding Onto Hope"

"Holding Onto Hope"

Contemplating echoes
Pressing thru my tears
Holding onto hope
Bearing thru my fears
Removing clothes within
Having different skin
Wanting to run away
Never return again
Watching for a moment
A twinkle of my eye
When all the changes
Take me by surprise
Overturning memories
Sifting thru the lines

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Poetry titled, "Waking Up"

"Waking Up"

A glimmer of perfect light
With hues of sapphires and gold
Words that were gently spoken
Of echoes through the night
I wondered in the shadows
Fiery coals burning within
The keys were holding open
A place I'd never been
I turned for an instant
Time seemed to stand still
A pondering this deep moment
I shivered from the chill
The likeness of appearance
I could never see or feel
Then the dream went silent
I pulled back the veil
I awakened from yesterday
Into a dreamy spill

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Poetry "A Stun Of Interference"

"A Stun Of Interference"

Below the surface
Subjective thoughts
Arising within
Overturning reasonings
A capture of light
Memberings quickening
I hold on tight
To My Rock
My Salvation
Mine Great King
Inner soul delights
I breathe again
Inspiring flavors
Of noble delights
Embracing my shadows
Modifying to life

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Poetry called "Conscious Recovery"

You left me alone
I waited in the dark
Hues of mystery told
Beholding the heart
A turbulent breaking
The rambling overload
Seasons come and gone
Years lost among range
Constant undirected plans
Ceased overthrown pains
A cloak of darkness
Off the norm and old
Flickering sand in glass
Time was melting slow
Remounting to the wind
Yet now stronger tuned
Amist the overflowings
Days of morning dews
Awakened once again
Still planless yearning
Ageless remembering you

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Why Woundest Thou My Soul Poetry

Why Woundest Thou My Soul
By Tonya Ashe

Why woundest thou my soul?
Your constant quiet inner whispers
Woundest thou my soul
So quietly I await thee
Hidden deep inside
Yet you ignore me
And I'm wounded again
Why woundest thou my soul?
Can't you move toward me?
Can't you look my way?
Why doest thou ignore me?
Why won't you stay?
So gently I await thee
Please stay anyways
Stop listenening inner voices
To the lies and betrays
Listen to me gently
to the Words of my Heart
Please stay anyways
I need you so desperately
Gently my heart says
Please stay Anyways
Cuts so deep
Like a wounding knife blade
The armor is pierced
Here I gently lay
Can't you see me?
Underneath the raging rains
Feeling as a torrential sea
Merciless torments
Misunderstandings
Seeing my pains
Can't you see the forever?
My heart awaiting you inside
Hurting... I'm bleeding
Yet here comes another storm
Torrential piercings
I bareth for you
Again and again
Why can't thou seest me?
Underneath all this pain
Why tormentest thou my soul?
Please Stay!

This poem is about what a woman goes through when in an torrential relationship. If you have been abused then you will truly understand it. 

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

"Adoration"

Oh how I adore You

So missing Your Divine touch

Re-Bliss my inner shadows

Take back what is Yours Alone

Consume me in Thine Love

Complete my incompleteness

For I am incomplete without You

You are my Rock of Strength

My heart fully leans upon

Needing Your Divine Love

Desperate for Your Holy Touch

Caress my Spirit with Thine Grace

Draw me into You

Draw me unto You

Consume me in Thine Love

Wash away the debris

of life's violence again

giving me renewed hope 

and strength to face the day

let not time slip anymore away

Say you love me and pull me

nearer cleansing all away, 

consuming my soul's need and desire

for thee; thus tis time forever stay. 

Never abandon never no more, 

for I live to love thee, 

my true love forevermore.

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Lifting Up Unto Thee

Oil Painting

Lifting Up Unto Thee

The storm comes
Yet I cease to be still
I slowly climb
UP, UP, UP
To You my Love
I gasp for breath
From the distress
And struggle to gain
Yet affliction is nothing
To a moment with You
Lifting my heart to view
To catch a glimpse of You
Quickly to and fro
I mesmerize the rows
Of tranquil stated time
Of glistening light
The taste of sweet wine
I yearn so deeply within
To feel and know again
A passionate kiss of Love
An heavenly rose for You
Capturing a state of growth
I feel a secluded note
Suddenly taken away
My remembrance of the day
How fair You are to me
Like a flutter in the rain
A dash of purity in salt
Shake upon my soul
Lifting me up to You
The struggle melts away
Passion flowing my way
Once again.... I'm in Love
With my Love, My Dove
My Beloved King
He purges me in kindness
That He has shown to me
Speak my Sweet Savour
My Divine Flame of Fire
Fill me with Thine Favour
Flavour me with Thine salt
Come quickly lest forever
Becomes only thy thought



All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Carrying Love

Though I bare much
I shall not be ashamed
Oh how I wait for Thee
My Beloved One
Gather me in great mercies
Everlasting kindness be upon me
My love is not wroth
He will never depart from me
My stones are fair and pleasant
Sapphires surround me
I am established in Thee
My soul yearns deeply
I travail so quickly
Pains have taken me
Let me not be shamed
I am smitten by Thee
Oh Great Love
Why hast Thou forsaken me
Turn not away
Please notice me
I have brought forth
Time is become my enemy
If I could conquer time
Surely I'd be next to Thee
Let Light come forth
Rise upon me
Be seen upon me
Take away my reproach
Thine beauty for my ashes
No more heaviness
Thou shalt cover me
With Thy feathers
For You are my Reward
My eternal crown of glory

Oil painting
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Consume Me Love!

Capture my soul
I delight in You
You are worthy
My great Reward
You rapture my heart
Touch me deeply
Your devoted love
I seek continually
Come to me
Passionate savors
Lightens my nights
I am where you are
Breathe upon me
Encompass me about
I am Yours

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Locked Away

Penitent years
Time was melting
I studied within
In theorized reasonings
I came broken apart
Tenderly mourning
Surviving the tension
Switching from dark
Climbing the stairway
Of awaiting restoration
Confinement til destiny
Unto my beautiful heart
I release you...

Oil Painting
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

A Peaceful Rest

All to often we are so consumed with life and the issues of life that we forget to take time to enjoy the simple things. We actually can become so routine to hearing and seeing these things that we don’t appreciate their beauty. I believe nature is full of beauty. Just the sounds of nature can lead one into a peaceful rest of serenity if one allows themselves to rest in it.
One thing that is quieting to my soul is just stopping and sitting awhile to just listen to the sounds of nature in my backyard. I love to listen to the communication of the birds in my backyard. It is almost spring here, so they are getting more and more intense in their communications. It is like they are sweetly stating, "look, look... get ready!" Life is about to spring forth! It is time for a new beginning of flowers blooming and all of nature refreshing itself again for our enjoyment and pleasure.
Isn’t it amazing how intricate and beautiful God made everything! And He gave it all to us. He created all nature and its beauty for us to behold and enjoy. Nature is God’s artwork and astounding design. It is a capture of His inward beauty.
If nature sings such beautiful songs to us here on earth, one can only imagine what heaven will be like.


All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe
Picture taken by my beloved Father, ©Larry Ashe

Love Dances

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Enduring Determination

Though darkness encompasses me about
I shall sing
I shall endure
Though the light sometimes fades
And persecution surrounds me
I will press through
I will fight
I will hold onto the promises
Within these momentary afflictions
I look up to the One
Insulation besieging my soul
A surveillance of majesty
Replacing my emptiness
Pacifying the doubts
Amplifying my wholeness
My interceding begins
Impulses of love
Improvising my within
Gravitation toward you
Releasing the sin

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

I Am Love

I am love
I live and I breathe
And yes... I am free
I am very strong
So powerful
So mighty
A fragrance of beauty
A rare pearl
A diamond hidden in rough
I am love
Tender yet so bold
Release you into total freedom
For there is no fear in love
And I will only set you free
You will fly upon my wings
Into an eternal bliss
Of heavenly high clouds
You will float then soar
On the wings of the dove
My Morning Dove
For the Great I Am
Lives in me
I am Love

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

I am a gentle rose

I am a gentle rose
Yet so strong and bold
Fadeless under adversity
Using it to grow
Though I am cast down
I shall not wither away
For my heart beats loud
Against the torrent waves
My house stands firm
Against the winds of change
Cast down, but not utterly
I shall withstand the test
Break me and I will shine
My light shall shine forth
It peeks through the clouds
Though I cry many tears
My heart battered and bruised
Yet it beats so lovely
At that perfect tune
And I shall dance until I fly
And soon...once again...
I will soar on eagles wings
My arms shall release
The breath in me
I speak, live, and breathe
I am Love

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Pushing Toward

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Separation

My heart is bleeding
As I awaken
Unbearable pain
Of aloneness
Time goes on
My world is shaken
Eyes never-ending
Person fading
Disguising reality
Moving past and on
Choosing a different view
Looking up
Temporary exchange
A breath of new
Aching for touch
Reaching into depths
Unheard and unseen
Thoughts swinging
Rolling back into view
What am I to do
Sitting here contemplating
Possible moments with You
Hurting to sing
Pain quaking within
Heart breaking
I see my sin
Causing separation
The door is open
The hinges are rusted
And the nobs are broken
Panels beaten
Please come back in

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

This Date Only

The unrelenting question I'm expressing within
I identify my person while releasing my sin
Rusted in remorse, tattered and bruised
Slowly I get back up, beautified and abused
Exposed I become in piercing the pain
I emerge from the prison preoccupied with you
I find pleasure and grace lifting up my head
I can surely see your face grazing into place
Go away...yet please stay... I'm battered and abused
I've closed my heart for a reason, thus I must pray
Why do you always turn away and leave me here without an image
And thus I must pray... again... I can't take much more
I want to run away... I want to fly
But I must wait on you...
So sick of sitting here... So sick of all the abuse
Guilt overwhelms my heart, laid down by your desire
I am broken inside, left by your pride
Where are you?
Heart like a plastered grid of paper
Covered, mattered, and used
Marred and disfigured by the blood and scars
Am I just a number or another face to you
Erase, smudge, and dodge the circle
Yet...still what am I to do?
Narrowing the time and pain
Each day becomes a memory of relentless gain
Someday the promise will come true
My heart will gravitate just right
And soon I will be next to you

Mixed media oil painting
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Thoughts of the color red
Pains of over birthing
Time pounding in my head
Still reminiscing
Realizing what was said
No compromising
Still I see the red
Pounding against my chest
Rhetorical sustenance
Abandoning the wont
Unbridled Words
Unbroken Words
Remedial discussions
As if now
I break the flowing
Of over knowing
Soliciting a solace
Rasping the thoughts
Overcoming the encumbrance
Ending this moment

 

This poem and art journal page is about overcoming hindrances and negative thinking patterns. Sometimes a pattern of thinking can hinder us from moving ahead or accomplishing something; perhaps a chore, goal, or dream. It is good that we always try to be aware of these hindrances in our minds. Even if we are not strong enough to overcome them; if we are aware of them, we can work toward overcoming them. Sometimes this process can be unpleasant to experience, especially if it is painful. We can choose to counter these negative thought patterns by replacing them with positive thoughts. Just think about something else. Think about something good and positive, something that is uplifting and encouraging to yourself. And once a habit of this is achieved, one has gained control over their thoughts and the process of their thoughts. This gives you freedom from the negative and helps you achieve your goals, dreams, and whatever else you may decide you want to accomplish in life.

Art Journal Page
All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe

Growing Into Love

Amplifying Passion
Into recognition of the disguise
Of Love
Bursting Out
Into the premonition of fear
Guarding the heart
Spreading Forth
Around the stimulation
Of directional substance
Proportional Knowing
Expanding the thought
Til intensified dreams
Cultivating Prediction
There all along
Hidden in the depths
Enduringly Hoping
Coming out of hiding
Exposing my heart

All Writing and Art by ©Tonya Ashe